My Long Journey

It all started in August of 2009. My husband and I decided we wanted to have a child. I got off birth control and waited. Waited for my period that is. I started taking my temperature hoping that I would see that "spike". I was new to this, and I didn't know anything. 150 days later I finally ovulated. I researched and found out that after getting off BCP it may take a while for your cycles to adjust. So I finally ovulated and thought "Ok my cycles must be getting normal". Well after that cycle ended, 150 days later and still no period. So I went to the doctor. She did was tests and diagnosed me with Poly-cystic Ovary Syndrome. (PCOS) So I went to a special OBGYN who knew more about it. I was put on Metformin. Although it helped to regulate my cycles, I still have yet to conceive. After a year of Metformin, I was up on 6 months of Clomid. (An ovulation drug) Six months later, still not pregnant. Now it is today. February 20, 2012 and still have to conceive. I am currently in the process of going to an RE to help me get pregnant. 


I found out a week ago that my younger sister is pregnant, and is choosing to get an abortion. Yes, she is irresponsible. Yes she could not afford it. NO I do not think she needs to get an abortion. I believe in adoption. It makes me very angry that people like me have been trying for so long to have a child. That would give anything to experience the joy of being pregnant. I was so heartbroken when I heard this. I cried for two days straight. It's just not fair. 


I promise that when I am pregnant I will not complain. I will enjoy the morning sickness. The sore boobs. The swollen feet. Everything. Some people are thinking "ya, you say that now" but no. When you are going through something like this, pregnancy is a miracle. It's not something you complain about, it is something that you cherish. Every moment.


So for those who are pregnant and complaining, shut up! This is Gods gift to you, so stop taking it for granted.